tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-85254469550489378902024-03-05T03:00:24.422-08:00Determined to change.A girl with a dream just trying to achive it. She wants to walk through the snow and leave no footprints.Aimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.comBlogger36125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-51455255986387374722010-03-23T11:12:00.000-07:002010-03-23T11:24:28.184-07:00She's fattening me up<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHRGRBD9pZWbnwt8R8xZ64VZGI2ZDEn0C301m-ZTO5F1XyH2J9_6RYle4PpC7MVeXgJ-3feODnC5L6-FkaxnipIWSz8onSCKjGCv1dEZiw_h3jzJHx6MHjEoK4w7jADduJNBeRhdXZ4g/s1600-h/m149197398.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 209px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHRGRBD9pZWbnwt8R8xZ64VZGI2ZDEn0C301m-ZTO5F1XyH2J9_6RYle4PpC7MVeXgJ-3feODnC5L6-FkaxnipIWSz8onSCKjGCv1dEZiw_h3jzJHx6MHjEoK4w7jADduJNBeRhdXZ4g/s320/m149197398.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5451896810085124242" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigx3y3nFiIbEWCgtUnPW56E_zTeBg8biaFhC1Yu4JRrWV4SSpE72cClV-WPfOw-_4WVukIWtdOnRyxGOFL4vlLC8sSG8jYJog63yq7YVIhIw0rl2V5WXfBTqW-GlihdzA_DC6B09CCqw/s1600-h/b191241556wow.png"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 208px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigx3y3nFiIbEWCgtUnPW56E_zTeBg8biaFhC1Yu4JRrWV4SSpE72cClV-WPfOw-_4WVukIWtdOnRyxGOFL4vlLC8sSG8jYJog63yq7YVIhIw0rl2V5WXfBTqW-GlihdzA_DC6B09CCqw/s320/b191241556wow.png" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5451896807504790034" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjjZHK0wl2HuZpxiaXrN0cwGItajg80gK1vnM0S3Bvu4PS4_WkLMIsHaz_isotKtmahhAP_YBhiV5eH_IudPbe2snSmIIZ_X1Em2E8HQoY6-wXZOYPfqy9S8M6ujh8BK7MxBReqZNqfzg/s1600-h/416399_dsc_0123.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 250px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjjZHK0wl2HuZpxiaXrN0cwGItajg80gK1vnM0S3Bvu4PS4_WkLMIsHaz_isotKtmahhAP_YBhiV5eH_IudPbe2snSmIIZ_X1Em2E8HQoY6-wXZOYPfqy9S8M6ujh8BK7MxBReqZNqfzg/s320/416399_dsc_0123.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5451896798055670050" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhe4yBaguG-sGVj_xp4CLRK4lyUSb5Xn_Hb_yaclDydUdIKPDjVW8rh51UCq53GCBAM7WamqbEK-8nPp13DZ-8HvuFfpcPg4bKHNV-7C9AJJUDGAUJXc8oU1YvEVOjwBh8wHzdONr1kQg/s1600-h/12-grace-kelly-white-bikini_sm_large.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 262px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhe4yBaguG-sGVj_xp4CLRK4lyUSb5Xn_Hb_yaclDydUdIKPDjVW8rh51UCq53GCBAM7WamqbEK-8nPp13DZ-8HvuFfpcPg4bKHNV-7C9AJJUDGAUJXc8oU1YvEVOjwBh8wHzdONr1kQg/s320/12-grace-kelly-white-bikini_sm_large.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5451896787182109186" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXOZBwI_YHEDd3vSvfeaa32o1Yr3B8GEOQKrj35tDkMQEAj0EkbrRuyFajME2bvJGMUxNv0ulwofwKVkiHNOjjCOJYKEle2FLlsdOnaUvhyrXdx7bJi8_oCTIVXMm9Ty7T8pZvzakDZQ/s1600-h/z186070009.png"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 256px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXOZBwI_YHEDd3vSvfeaa32o1Yr3B8GEOQKrj35tDkMQEAj0EkbrRuyFajME2bvJGMUxNv0ulwofwKVkiHNOjjCOJYKEle2FLlsdOnaUvhyrXdx7bJi8_oCTIVXMm9Ty7T8pZvzakDZQ/s320/z186070009.png" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5451896780841734594" /></a><br />It's decided. My friend is trying to make me gain weight, I swear she is. Sometimes there's nothing I can do about it either, because when my stomachs growling and I'm feeling faint all it takes is for someone to ask if I want to share their lunch and I'm a gonna. <br />Every couple of days she'll bring me in a 'treat' and of course she be in a mood with me if I reject it. My biggest fear is that she's fattening me up so she looks thinner. I don't want to sound vain and paranoid, but a part of me doesn't know how to trust her.<br />The two of us were talking about our plans for the summer and she kept enthusing how she definitely wasn't going to wear shorts, when really that's all I want to do. I'll have to make myself more apparent to her, stick up for myself, for once.<br />The only thing I feared about losing weight was losing my boobs, it sounds strange but I feel completely unfeminine without them, I simply have to realise being thin will make me happiest of all and I can always fake the boobs.<br />Stay strong<br />AimeeAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-86902045723506357492010-03-18T10:46:00.000-07:002010-03-18T11:01:38.917-07:00The feeling<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhMWhv2WBCP2_yenI3YqD1uLubImOwzf6bMKisqkBkqBqYR01-zZ-p0QdTTiqZd1b6-XZWcnM3eeqfWL7J-Cj4l2uu-GtDNh_QBiubhPur0Ny6UlY6qEoXimnIuABvErU5tV_60RBnQmg/s1600-h/z197996732.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 308px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhMWhv2WBCP2_yenI3YqD1uLubImOwzf6bMKisqkBkqBqYR01-zZ-p0QdTTiqZd1b6-XZWcnM3eeqfWL7J-Cj4l2uu-GtDNh_QBiubhPur0Ny6UlY6qEoXimnIuABvErU5tV_60RBnQmg/s320/z197996732.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5450035437329776946" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzbgzkQVKC65Gf8Ap5YHb7TGMikXlR0L6jNwOByZERmKaMNxHpHheNJF_LUvw6wcnuIWyd5e0-_i_wdfOoDxiyMA1QaHM52aeNYnKBmEzsmS2vt-cvTNMePUM7b3VUkaiqJoqkXACTtw/s1600-h/b195134197.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 233px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzbgzkQVKC65Gf8Ap5YHb7TGMikXlR0L6jNwOByZERmKaMNxHpHheNJF_LUvw6wcnuIWyd5e0-_i_wdfOoDxiyMA1QaHM52aeNYnKBmEzsmS2vt-cvTNMePUM7b3VUkaiqJoqkXACTtw/s320/b195134197.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5450035427190151986" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgw8k6jcO4R3jAJ9tc3nP1Nk2FLKmkw3Du9brRbQrpQkCMjP9dHiFBhI5DP83ZXYpYtqc5PAUsF3I38r6RZ0Mev5Fnp9Ga-55i0vgGX5-NIPMvV-0RJZlXVfeTwJpumujY1K6x6nFnsyA/s1600-h/20090714024304.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgw8k6jcO4R3jAJ9tc3nP1Nk2FLKmkw3Du9brRbQrpQkCMjP9dHiFBhI5DP83ZXYpYtqc5PAUsF3I38r6RZ0Mev5Fnp9Ga-55i0vgGX5-NIPMvV-0RJZlXVfeTwJpumujY1K6x6nFnsyA/s320/20090714024304.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5450035424077182018" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEioU0A-xBWAXR9cU4SYzzcS-4GXu-ejFyXCAjSVaghwzuaxjGPJjQ9ssFpgCrzReBW0WxNQUU8xDzRj4fdKdMZ-dmE9J1PZA1E4J7esZ5RDdKzZ347hcYYjixGUgRFzR2tl-UsDYX6KxA/s1600-h/20080427125410.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 215px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEioU0A-xBWAXR9cU4SYzzcS-4GXu-ejFyXCAjSVaghwzuaxjGPJjQ9ssFpgCrzReBW0WxNQUU8xDzRj4fdKdMZ-dmE9J1PZA1E4J7esZ5RDdKzZ347hcYYjixGUgRFzR2tl-UsDYX6KxA/s320/20080427125410.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5450035419087350546" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxxf4mbVY6aOUrVLKhed7mAC7KDGSeco_byUEPt05atvdUlVh0xuWdc72uEZQfxjVfRzcCUrcZwa5ZokKQeem0aJvQsiuP668oeGFoxQz4lu-n3xZ65B-aoH1oPPNQCbTFQ87pSKBMnA/s1600-h/223844_ohjimiwow.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 217px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxxf4mbVY6aOUrVLKhed7mAC7KDGSeco_byUEPt05atvdUlVh0xuWdc72uEZQfxjVfRzcCUrcZwa5ZokKQeem0aJvQsiuP668oeGFoxQz4lu-n3xZ65B-aoH1oPPNQCbTFQ87pSKBMnA/s320/223844_ohjimiwow.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5450035412956564290" /></a><br />I miss Ana. Some way, I plan on regaining her respect. Without her I am nothing it seems, she knows what I want and no matter how many time I mess up she always there. Now I just want to make sure she wants to be there too.<br />There's this feeling, I can't describe it really. Don't worry, I'm not about to get sexual on everyone. My heart feels a sense of familiarity and I lose myself in feeling reassured, this has everything to do with Ana. Whenever I see something that reminds me of Ana, I get the feeling. It's rather twisted, but it makes me smile. I am reminded oh what Ana does for me everyday, so the feeling must be good for something. <br />I don't care if I'm being stubborn to people, I really don't. When they can't deal with me, its their problem. I'm doing whats right for me now, and I'll get what I want eventually.<br />Recently a successful friend of mine has left blogger, finally happy with themselves, it reminded me that we are fighting for something achievable, all the stories we hear and all the thin, gorgeous people we see really exist. We don't just make these things up. <br /><br />Stay strong for me ladies xxxAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-47300477030870642452010-03-04T16:08:00.001-08:002010-03-07T09:04:54.166-08:00LOVE. TRUST. CONTROL. PERFECT. LIFE.LOVE. I've always used the word love very sparingly, since I was really young, if I didn't love someone I wouldn't say I did. Not even if they said it to me. <br />There's always been a wall around my heart, I like to think that every time someone hurts me a brick in the wall disappears. Using all my strength I'd replace the brick so no-one could ever betray me again. So if I confess my love to someone then its a big deal. People throw the word around these day like it doesn't mean anything to them at all, just an obstacle in the way of having sex. Most people aren't even in love to begin with. Most people don't even know what love is. <br />I'm not claiming to be some sort of expert here, to be honest I'm not sure whether I've ever loved anyone. Even my family, I only love them because they're my family and its expected of me. Without that pressure, I doubt I'd love some of them at all. This isn't meant to be harsh, I'm simply trying to stress to you how important love is to me. <br />So have I ever been in love? I can't really be sure. Which probably means, no, I haven't. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br />The reason to this is because I find it very difficult to trust people, I still remain with the opinion, the best person to rely on is yourself. Throughout my life I've had so many let downs and failures, and I doubt I can take this much longer. <br />Guess you could say this was one example of how my eating issues started. I wanted to regain control of myself. I wanted Independence. I wanted people to notice me, to think twice about their opinion on me. I wanted to prove I was good for something, one thing. The people in my life would finally give me my life. It wouldn't be controlled by other people, I'd make my own decision and be taken seriously as an individual. I would be responsible for MY life, so I could only blame myself when everything fucked itself up. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br />ANA was a perfect option. A savior for me. To rid me of myself, and make me the person I've always felt inside of me, buried under layers of fat is a girl screaming for her chance to speak up. She will defend me, protect me and voice her opinions. In the meantime, Ana will help me, I know she will. No matter how many times I betray her, she welcomes me back with welcome arms. She's a really protective, skinny suite of armour.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />After being abandoned by my dad, bullied last year in school and failing to become thin yet again, 13 years old wasn't a great age for me. Yes, I may only be 14. Yes, I am not wise. Yes, I am gullabe. Yes, I still have much to learn about life. But that doesn't mean I won't experience life to its fulliest. Time to wake up and move on from the past, let go of the person I used to be use both my hands to grab hold of the beautiful thin perosn I WILL become. She will never escape me again. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Thinking thin, sometimes it's all i ever think about<br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTv8HlMqhrRc2BdPyT-9w_QuBEWH7gQ9iiUZpT0U-yvMbykPTd5s5ulBG08XP9bakD2zPimaVkik1qgnKDmfg4vbcu98_d4kl88npXnfTVVrmThRUwul7kjCT0wgEn4W4iqt6Z45Ir_w/s1600-h/3834910653_e1294069d8_o.png"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 213px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTv8HlMqhrRc2BdPyT-9w_QuBEWH7gQ9iiUZpT0U-yvMbykPTd5s5ulBG08XP9bakD2zPimaVkik1qgnKDmfg4vbcu98_d4kl88npXnfTVVrmThRUwul7kjCT0wgEn4W4iqt6Z45Ir_w/s320/3834910653_e1294069d8_o.png" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5445937237556833810" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgGGXfJFK3h6lVe9yCHe_eJ0THBKjtJn7O91mAdCGe316UntJp9qVN8LMyP8pA29qm-xLSqjWhZNBbUYGkZApX4Pf57iPGqJCWV1f2T8yfT6qJS943GCt3sH_qqOqkc94rpop3xNZ9FLw/s1600-h/44899_f260.jpg"><img style="display:block; 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margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHsrveiJN3WCebuIU-zBYY43ZvWqGd39jxWjXx_Q4Bxy8Fl50Dx_mLDBzCKzuRFTjJ8k5axkTBla5bao63-1FAOeYH_m605FpNQ-ArjnatD6YUNP0no6-IDWWaxzjVTU-JnaYmfA2BLA/s320/b202634101.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5445938782740500450" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh8P04WIVGaOL0rePdB-mA8N05ScX1KWstHRxWMP39RTTWh32xksq3NkaXGEPZvP4eue25pYw7led7SGkaWoZUG7R3QV028wyvhU5IxKVx1c8HL9SaWjonMk47eG2RABlxNV5DVhAOQ8Q/s1600-h/chanel+iman+3.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh8P04WIVGaOL0rePdB-mA8N05ScX1KWstHRxWMP39RTTWh32xksq3NkaXGEPZvP4eue25pYw7led7SGkaWoZUG7R3QV028wyvhU5IxKVx1c8HL9SaWjonMk47eG2RABlxNV5DVhAOQ8Q/s320/chanel+iman+3.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5445938781637504162" /></a>Aimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-89147002388490625312010-03-04T15:22:00.000-08:002010-03-04T15:30:18.427-08:00Here I am, all or nothing.There's no explanation for why I've been away so long, some way along the line it just seemed to be a bit late to re-blog although I'm now back with more opinions then ever. <br /><br />The reasoning for this post...<br /><br />I was left in the kitchen in a complete panic; all we have left in the cupboard isn’t what you would exactly call healthy. All I did was burst into tears, most of my family was around me so it wasn’t the best time to have a break down. There’s no longer a part of me that is driven towards being thin, yet at the same time I cannot live being fat a moment longer. I have no where to go and no one to talk to, this thought brought up the memory of a blog I’ve been neglecting. It’s strange, the more I eat the less I blog, something about me just screams guilty all the time. Yet somehow blogging has been known to put me off from eating. So here I am, everything I will ever be has to revolve around so unknown glory of thinness I can never reach, meaning, I will forever want to be thin and I’ll never have the restraint to do so. <br />All things included, its my person belief to start blogging again, I see no alternative. For this, I am truly sorry if everyone’s lost faith in me, believe me when I say I understand. Although nothing gets me through the day like the support I get on this blog. <br /><br />A few things I’ve discovered from my absence….<br />You can burn around 300-400 calories from a brisk walk, this walk has to last an hour though.<br />Skipping is an amazing exercise if you don’t want to go outside. <br />I hate being cold, even if it make me thinner. There’s something in my blood that… let’s just say doesn’t like the cold as this causes bad skin reactions and blood flow problems. <br />My friends eat way too much.<br />And a few other things ;)<br /><br />From my last post the comments really help, so I'm going to their advice and gradually move towards perfection istead of diving in at the deep end. For the rest of the week I'll keep it under 500. At least 300-500 calories burnt off a day with exercise and absolutely no more alcohol! <br /><br />Oh and no idividual food over 150 calories, one type of food, that many calories!? wtf, no way. <br /><br />Thinking thin<br />Aimee xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-30780686642852907832010-02-16T02:23:00.000-08:002010-02-16T02:44:03.204-08:00These jeans were made to fit me....and that's just what they'll do....either these will fit me or I'll walk all over you! (with my layers of fat)<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgosq5a-dU6DXp_pikhGODAsp3RPUiH8ZJyR7jTmTRMaQJ_xnPRzJOfQpI7oqiG_WYXJFhOsBI1NNf4pwbg1KInWlgzGa9N6WLmaov54CkGKSHaIstR6z_YuQwSXtm2EXQmBmOO0bnXkQ/s1600-h/2uz46rk.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 312px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgosq5a-dU6DXp_pikhGODAsp3RPUiH8ZJyR7jTmTRMaQJ_xnPRzJOfQpI7oqiG_WYXJFhOsBI1NNf4pwbg1KInWlgzGa9N6WLmaov54CkGKSHaIstR6z_YuQwSXtm2EXQmBmOO0bnXkQ/s320/2uz46rk.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5438789663964065490" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAlTFssKfcdTrhz_ocrUQaBVp58Ge_s0nAOQGSgkOsl0V_lWEA5uVkIJ1Wm6HYvXU7wp2VIKR1yBUvY6J8tECc2po4xUm9mKXKW6OVcRp1NF5DFh1_0Ispu94oLqZNVXOOtBk74MfCQg/s1600-h/1.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 238px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAlTFssKfcdTrhz_ocrUQaBVp58Ge_s0nAOQGSgkOsl0V_lWEA5uVkIJ1Wm6HYvXU7wp2VIKR1yBUvY6J8tECc2po4xUm9mKXKW6OVcRp1NF5DFh1_0Ispu94oLqZNVXOOtBk74MfCQg/s320/1.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5438789661724664690" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEggT4GAl-gH6GlC_GrmRDYPb7v2KUmVYo_76d_PIF_PAx_p9Td0FkQ9GVKD9nNeaek2wK_B9urJ1TCJrw3SkDibhXWu9LAcXH6IJFdCopFB3t9cW-NPAY12865Mv5VvDJdfCwYjCDlB-w/s1600-h/z199025649.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEggT4GAl-gH6GlC_GrmRDYPb7v2KUmVYo_76d_PIF_PAx_p9Td0FkQ9GVKD9nNeaek2wK_B9urJ1TCJrw3SkDibhXWu9LAcXH6IJFdCopFB3t9cW-NPAY12865Mv5VvDJdfCwYjCDlB-w/s320/z199025649.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5438789655179375330" /></a><br />My jeans don't fit and I have nothing to wear! What the hell is with me? I have no will power whatsoever, may as well make me twice as big now, I deserve it. What happened? Next year I demand there will be no Christmas, before that things were going okay, I was incredibly naive however at least I was happy. Now losing however many lbs seems impossible, I simply need to regain control and re-start this whole experience. Which means for the rest of the day I'm going to try and start eating "normally" ekkk! I don't think there's such a thing anymore. <br /><br />Apparently it takes 20 minutes after eating to realise how full you are, which means you could have a full stomach and still be stuffing your face! Yuck. <br /><br />All I want is to look smoking hot in some short-shorts for the summer. That is my aim. <br /><br />Wish me luck for fitting into my jeans (: xxx<br />Stay stronger then me, please, I wouldn't wish this anguish on anybody!Aimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-3822792193158615032010-02-13T03:55:00.000-08:002010-02-13T04:07:08.259-08:00Nice to be noticed<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiA-6IHziLnMHVY2PFtUtwnfPMzFDv41M-e12Vgf1PENlH_sB4RPsSq0W4yEruBjEZ1NeoOx2EBFBxkQTsV3zOPpQqR9QM3l_SAMTEi-nr4Sdg74qeyi-KeYjtmCs0ISITnb-lJ4AB8Fg/s1600-h/b120588800.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiA-6IHziLnMHVY2PFtUtwnfPMzFDv41M-e12Vgf1PENlH_sB4RPsSq0W4yEruBjEZ1NeoOx2EBFBxkQTsV3zOPpQqR9QM3l_SAMTEi-nr4Sdg74qeyi-KeYjtmCs0ISITnb-lJ4AB8Fg/s320/b120588800.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5437698084137182098" /></a><br />Sorry I haven't posted in a long time, I've been trying to be thinner and so far its working. Somehow I got through the fast, and settled my diet down from there. Today I'm feeling quite ill and plan to have pieces of one apple all through the day. Wish me luck.<br />Yesterday my brother said i was "just bones", I was completely thrilled, although I know I'm no where near "just bones" it nice to be noticed. <br />It's half term, so my skinnie minnies let your hair done and have a laugh, we all deserve it (: <br />Stay strong xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-1134388629064795412010-01-31T07:00:00.000-08:002010-01-31T07:48:15.678-08:00When you give up your dream...you die<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6VYES9a4ml4LgN8yGoe-fB2qPFVOKviDwbVRxSy8lq8dgoNps_6B9P4uXE1IW27uRiYjHyBBbMppQifhT9MyleLPjpobEr-ggvHV93gInUOBrKJ7l4Dyh5RPPDW6fASeomOrJUWNwhQ/s1600-h/20090411130101.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6VYES9a4ml4LgN8yGoe-fB2qPFVOKviDwbVRxSy8lq8dgoNps_6B9P4uXE1IW27uRiYjHyBBbMppQifhT9MyleLPjpobEr-ggvHV93gInUOBrKJ7l4Dyh5RPPDW6fASeomOrJUWNwhQ/s320/20090411130101.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5432930830774612850" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEggnip6A81KDeokcqco531n1zREGee7Uxm2T7bm-AjnO-75HWCebXISdRrxh78eFj93cMk-EpIh-4Rzjch8VvgJ_HbI8qVmc9244vjPhEaHWlXy7pFoivG4n8UQPeqg8Irmk7B3x8OGag/s1600-h/01709S~1.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 213px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEggnip6A81KDeokcqco531n1zREGee7Uxm2T7bm-AjnO-75HWCebXISdRrxh78eFj93cMk-EpIh-4Rzjch8VvgJ_HbI8qVmc9244vjPhEaHWlXy7pFoivG4n8UQPeqg8Irmk7B3x8OGag/s320/01709S~1.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5432930825454725298" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0YIJOdOTkdNzO0IELgCLK7KssaygUb8Kq80Nn_jgjSglj0-tFE1h1VB6TCLpHnxsqnjhY0QPRiqoJfYF5aNBiVj76Qyw9BAA28K0czXopzBiqmQc8VlVr_rKZrI7wBPnl4mQCcy8iCg/s1600-h/348.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0YIJOdOTkdNzO0IELgCLK7KssaygUb8Kq80Nn_jgjSglj0-tFE1h1VB6TCLpHnxsqnjhY0QPRiqoJfYF5aNBiVj76Qyw9BAA28K0czXopzBiqmQc8VlVr_rKZrI7wBPnl4mQCcy8iCg/s320/348.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5432930816981484722" /></a><br /><br />Some people know their dream from when they're kids, they'll see something on t.v. or hear something on the radio, hey maybe they'll even see someone doing something that truly inspires them. Who knows? A dream can be anything you want it to be, you aimed towards something so huge it's unbelievable when you finally achieve it. It means something when you achieve it. Eventually we can stumble onto our dreams or they can root themselves into us so powerfully we simply can't avoid them. <br />Before, I thought I had no dream. No purpose. No reason to exist. This very moment I still feel like that, there wouldn't really be a change in anything if I didn't exist. Therefore there is no-one to live my life for except me, from now on I do what's best for me. Full stop. <br /><br />My main dream....to be thin. To be remembered. To be the person I want to be. But mainly to be the thinnest. <br /><br />Beginning this new thought process is a three day fast, after that I have no idea yet. I'm hoping to cleanse my body. Completely. I've never done a fast so long before, however failure isn't an option. <br /><br />There is no ultimatum between being thin and having a boyfriend. Regrettably in the past the two have been in an either or situation, I could have only ever had one. No more I tell you, no more. Boys will see what they've been missing as I become thinner and thinner. Sorted. <br /><br />I LOVE TO BLOG. Frantically I move through each day with all these thoughts and opinions I never have the courage to share, although as soon as I begin blogging, everything seems so much easier. This is helping me to show how I feel everyday, without fear of how I come off to people. The support on this blogs makes me happiest. Having people who know me in a way no-one else does, so great. You accept me as just me, just as I except you skinny minnies. <br /><br /><br /><br />Stay strong. Feel the way you need to feel. Not the way people expect you to feel. <br />Aimee x xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-20922719520077112052010-01-27T10:56:00.000-08:002010-01-27T11:04:20.053-08:00Texting buddy (:<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgpmD-s9Wl8RxUbjuER0tgzV6ousMyMFsnDQLNJSy3K1-MtghLb_9G9dJ1-J4a6JLz4YvZCJZVMvERf0mumg4cIxtXB9NlTyYSNZG88ZwC3CCiFl2lmMTiqdTkgZ2yIl8Hc5lz67TrxtA/s1600-h/371069_IMGP6227_.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 232px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgpmD-s9Wl8RxUbjuER0tgzV6ousMyMFsnDQLNJSy3K1-MtghLb_9G9dJ1-J4a6JLz4YvZCJZVMvERf0mumg4cIxtXB9NlTyYSNZG88ZwC3CCiFl2lmMTiqdTkgZ2yIl8Hc5lz67TrxtA/s320/371069_IMGP6227_.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5431497388368578866" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjstRHgL4il8jZJvrLIgvi3ytJRmqKvSth5Nis9Ek-YzAHW1b45QytKyNrEN_W-JHLYTxoycbSYwEXVZ7j9SmNqfeix-UrO93f7QWY9TjGGudmD35grDGFrv9_QqfRqCmaka7AKz2fCIg/s1600-h/z194687758.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 229px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjstRHgL4il8jZJvrLIgvi3ytJRmqKvSth5Nis9Ek-YzAHW1b45QytKyNrEN_W-JHLYTxoycbSYwEXVZ7j9SmNqfeix-UrO93f7QWY9TjGGudmD35grDGFrv9_QqfRqCmaka7AKz2fCIg/s320/z194687758.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5431497382164902658" /></a><br />Well I dyed my hair. I thought new me right? No. Didn't quite work out as I'd planned, it turned out just a few shades off my original colour which wasn't what I was going for at all. <br />On another note, my school is going to contact my mum and talk about the behavior issues I have. Or whatever. I suppose most of my concentration goes towards calories, lbs, exercises, weight lose, Ana... not much time to focus on school work. Which probably isn't the best idea to my school since my exams are starting in a couple of weeks... oh well. <br />Oh. I was wondering if anyone wanted a texting buddy, I live in the UK, so anyone else who does can text me if you want. I'd love some support. If anyone's interested my email is aimee_perfectionispossible@hotmail.co.uk <br /><br />Think thin my skinnie minnies xxAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-55344348619799584632010-01-26T10:56:00.000-08:002010-01-26T11:10:09.279-08:00Exercising can be tough<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuVBQqjdXqPYOC3nSZpHJ4Y5VPPlLcfjMYg66h0JAuVJCO2LCPvhbfCGtQRpJAkk885aLoaMXp2LgzN4sp7KwaO2uUevDfLoUDCh62BaJb9DbvNZOnGBaa84zz-Ips8slSBxz_0DtCcw/s1600-h/54a7faaa2f0ec8ae46c4612f097799b9.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 298px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuVBQqjdXqPYOC3nSZpHJ4Y5VPPlLcfjMYg66h0JAuVJCO2LCPvhbfCGtQRpJAkk885aLoaMXp2LgzN4sp7KwaO2uUevDfLoUDCh62BaJb9DbvNZOnGBaa84zz-Ips8slSBxz_0DtCcw/s320/54a7faaa2f0ec8ae46c4612f097799b9.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5431127752534171298" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigOnlUW7j2qvxZ7iaVp7tpAqdwD6OkhzK_qV0BcAIATVHwc-j6ym5wRrCi2wh7dBKyxsnLz9d-Mxougqc0PEZ8TEtpqQ8XjWVYKcXrayPBm8QK6fhAvx1kJKtBcpFpynN3ZDvHIAaDmQ/s1600-h/90210-nylon-cover-82008-1.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigOnlUW7j2qvxZ7iaVp7tpAqdwD6OkhzK_qV0BcAIATVHwc-j6ym5wRrCi2wh7dBKyxsnLz9d-Mxougqc0PEZ8TEtpqQ8XjWVYKcXrayPBm8QK6fhAvx1kJKtBcpFpynN3ZDvHIAaDmQ/s320/90210-nylon-cover-82008-1.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5431127748295226722" /></a><br />Sorry I haven't been posting in a while. I am trying to keep updated with every one's blogs I promise. <br />For those of you interested, the 2468-fast went okay, not as well as I'd hoped for, though it was always just a beginning diet to get me back into the swing of things. For now I'm trying to eat under 600 calories a day until I figure out what to do. I was hoping to do a 3 day detox at the beginning of February, just to cleanse my body of all bad food. Until then, holy shit what will I do?<br />Exercise is really tough. A new revelation I've just found out. Getting rid of those calories is extremely difficult on my body at the moment, dance classes are sounding more and more inviting. The reason I don't ever lose enough weight when I'm hardly eating is because my body will make water weight, the same with everyone else. We exercise when we don't eat to get rid of that water weight. Not exercising at all isn't an option. <br />Good news! My XS coat, fits! Stick that where the sun don't shine, no-one thought it would fit, and guess what, it does. Its even slightly baggy around the shoulders. Sorry, I just had to say it to the people at school who didn't believe me. <br /><br />Think thin lovely ladies, it seems to be all I ever do.Aimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-48954767410644378362010-01-20T11:23:00.000-08:002010-01-20T11:34:35.086-08:00Anorexia<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZ_ueKFOXNljtv9m27LsadxkBnNtWo2ZFCYRh2lLRq9X6jsDcdJ8ZEamrxWodJXhfHlfoYlzoTY93N-UUYDTJujNYHn9hDtmDK-l8PWVHS6PJkQ-nMep7J63I3Zx26SPvYSIZidRHj3A/s1600-h/___nicole-richie___-731-524x626_large.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 268px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZ_ueKFOXNljtv9m27LsadxkBnNtWo2ZFCYRh2lLRq9X6jsDcdJ8ZEamrxWodJXhfHlfoYlzoTY93N-UUYDTJujNYHn9hDtmDK-l8PWVHS6PJkQ-nMep7J63I3Zx26SPvYSIZidRHj3A/s320/___nicole-richie___-731-524x626_large.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5428907641007886738" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7DGQq6Snkp-kblnvuoejid3MWKcTo8yns1yFPWlrCBNlCWzDR7jk4zy5LvE_V3GW7VuppyK2OmQD4P3tkeDth-goef7pEeTNKrOQ3jT_B_41t0dfF233r-849PNKw6CHiRVbYW5pf4w/s1600-h/tumblr_ksjq3zCL6t1qa68a2o1_500_large.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 290px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7DGQq6Snkp-kblnvuoejid3MWKcTo8yns1yFPWlrCBNlCWzDR7jk4zy5LvE_V3GW7VuppyK2OmQD4P3tkeDth-goef7pEeTNKrOQ3jT_B_41t0dfF233r-849PNKw6CHiRVbYW5pf4w/s320/tumblr_ksjq3zCL6t1qa68a2o1_500_large.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5428907643576410834" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFUSYFkxqiGqGkhxu5uhstsA98Di0yLL8MsiJgDQ4wBUaIg5I85Wiu0anTG1e8I9sjxOeAg9_SOGbTLKF-RMonmtCplvviQKSBmdz63GxtvcqgyueLJRmImHdGl0JdnXWTK9orLjsCcA/s1600-h/z206107790.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 209px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFUSYFkxqiGqGkhxu5uhstsA98Di0yLL8MsiJgDQ4wBUaIg5I85Wiu0anTG1e8I9sjxOeAg9_SOGbTLKF-RMonmtCplvviQKSBmdz63GxtvcqgyueLJRmImHdGl0JdnXWTK9orLjsCcA/s320/z206107790.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5428907638841947410" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWjwlwLET6qRWsbRuaVpGkmmDIl-kpy_7S3NW6L90RsnQ1CvH-hQ-_dmTEVJvLGpWdbJdNAm1qn1XZo5oHJOBmRiIBhl3lAQJwJt0tyOQ7t18yfgLeSs3iqzZ_B2Zo3a0WxviOadP-7g/s1600-h/888888.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 244px; height: 293px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWjwlwLET6qRWsbRuaVpGkmmDIl-kpy_7S3NW6L90RsnQ1CvH-hQ-_dmTEVJvLGpWdbJdNAm1qn1XZo5oHJOBmRiIBhl3lAQJwJt0tyOQ7t18yfgLeSs3iqzZ_B2Zo3a0WxviOadP-7g/s320/888888.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5428907626863971122" /></a><br />The less I eat, the less need to exercise, right? And I hate exercising completely, as well as eating. <br />Everyday I travel on this journey, where I haven't quite got on the train yet and I'm too far in the process of ever turning back. This allows me to see what's happening to me, I can reflect on the person I used to be and notice the changes that have already happened. Whether or not it works, I'm in this for good, no questions asked. Am I trying to become a weight I'm happy with or am I just trying to be an anorexic? <br /><br />Honestly, I think it's both. <br />Still thinking xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-769363042042613832010-01-17T10:48:00.000-08:002010-01-20T11:21:12.847-08:00Stupid meHow the hell have I not been getting enormously fat every single day? I had to have a huge group of girls in my p.e. class today argue about anorexia to explain things to me. Fml. <br /><br />"...the more calories you eat, the more energy you have, but sometimes people don't burn off what they eat, this means they become...?" sir asked<br />"fat!" one girl shouted out. <br />"over-weight" sir corrected.<br />"sir, what about anorexics?" a stupid brat asked.<br />"well they don't eat as much as their bodies need, and what they do eat, they burn off through intense exercise." <br />"yeah but what about their water-weight? don't they starve themselves but don't lose weight because their body builds up water weight." <br />hmm...really I thought.<br />"actually, they usually work that off too." <br />hooray I cheered...silently in my head of course.<br /><br />It was then we began working out, and I work really hard for around 30 minutes on the tread-mill and only burned of 200. Where have I been for the past few months? I'm a pathetic person. <br /><br />xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-85496771616233842652010-01-17T10:30:00.000-08:002010-01-17T10:51:54.113-08:00Always turning a blind eye.<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCM-IkgPdaNoWaD_8ueN8-CO_3EoX5KoOSYYWQ1vPeC_vDyaQKfdrwpMz70-r_A8BTZoi96tGXPxMACfNMt4nJZ2gVDexvNiKfE7XCc3p0pPyGFo5z_6XqxLitCf2nJ855yEfTDW6Jzg/s1600-h/525x_r%25C3%25B6tt-h%25C3%25A5r-086.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCM-IkgPdaNoWaD_8ueN8-CO_3EoX5KoOSYYWQ1vPeC_vDyaQKfdrwpMz70-r_A8BTZoi96tGXPxMACfNMt4nJZ2gVDexvNiKfE7XCc3p0pPyGFo5z_6XqxLitCf2nJ855yEfTDW6Jzg/s320/525x_r%25C3%25B6tt-h%25C3%25A5r-086.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5427781817770749234" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJC_N9NULPg_sQcyL7P7S6A402-dGpO1_3h-qe0YrMfr4fWRYRkHe2y1SeuEzY3NnyZa8G1mzIswHxXONoN7FpeD7W37N7p1Lbt38x6OEfsXB2CWMOkH_Gcbz3NWU3t0zaw5NN8kSuOQ/s1600-h/z186299224.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 236px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJC_N9NULPg_sQcyL7P7S6A402-dGpO1_3h-qe0YrMfr4fWRYRkHe2y1SeuEzY3NnyZa8G1mzIswHxXONoN7FpeD7W37N7p1Lbt38x6OEfsXB2CWMOkH_Gcbz3NWU3t0zaw5NN8kSuOQ/s320/z186299224.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5427781818102528642" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRhuR6kn6irI-EVhq5pYDlxuMm0bWK5Lk5s4Pcjw1D92fJki7wsx8Y7R9ZXjjGiHM9A4WBpBU_FK2zUIj1rp_DtWQLg8pKMouyZ_qbegZ_9VVAGuW_57MJvDdp7D-54Pjychjvs_v6eQ/s1600-h/b197555509wow.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRhuR6kn6irI-EVhq5pYDlxuMm0bWK5Lk5s4Pcjw1D92fJki7wsx8Y7R9ZXjjGiHM9A4WBpBU_FK2zUIj1rp_DtWQLg8pKMouyZ_qbegZ_9VVAGuW_57MJvDdp7D-54Pjychjvs_v6eQ/s320/b197555509wow.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5427781815216865298" /></a><br />Yesterday I had an epiphany, I turn a blind eye to almost everything. I do it intentionally, as if it's easier to ignore some things then deal with them. Which is stupid because it's all just going to catch up with me one day and hurt me more. I won't go into details but I found something out about my friends that I realised I've always known, and I felt really upset, which turned to anger. I challenged that anger into exercise and dancing crazy around the house, and haven't felt hungry all day. So I'm kinda glad I was upset. Weird? ...<br />And another thing (sorry if it feels like I'm ranting), this lad I've known for years, who in the past has properly like me, told me to order a size large or extra large coat. WTF? Em try size small, jack-ass. I'll prove him wrong. <br />So what?! My friend can do whatever she likes, lets see the look on her face in a few months when I'm skinny. She can shove that smirk where the sun don't shine!<br />I had to eat dinner today, carrots with potato and a bit of Yorkshire pudding, partly because of my mum and also because I really want to stay true to the 2468 diet to see how it goes. I'm not sure if it's going as successfully as I'd of wished, so I may turn the plan into a 2, 4, 6, 8, fast diet for the next week. <br /><br />Stay strong, I wish balloons could float us away. xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-39398052836407939442010-01-16T05:09:00.000-08:002010-01-16T05:23:55.518-08:00I choose Ana..<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfwSZWitWwHYkDNZ_BZBjn0vYfyLX7y058GWKYkXcNZiEkfJ_xsukxhYQTjuI427RUEUFpjiD0MoZ5e1vvJsulHc0nMw73LEyS7PRw9NjqdbgEWy1aGQCE6GdlocFr8ybg-IDOEz9Hmw/s1600-h/7828_look1.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 237px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfwSZWitWwHYkDNZ_BZBjn0vYfyLX7y058GWKYkXcNZiEkfJ_xsukxhYQTjuI427RUEUFpjiD0MoZ5e1vvJsulHc0nMw73LEyS7PRw9NjqdbgEWy1aGQCE6GdlocFr8ybg-IDOEz9Hmw/s320/7828_look1.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5427327810609711362" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiVDCi23wAE6-bcw5jdePIbIvRjW3J5srkU6evSFKreWFRq453ThozZ303nzV-ii61Nqtqrgxnsgzrug9_1r9HAnxOq3rFW8TJzcPlEBmQTbjbTyuvYAbjSmdPI5mR6zTC1c3fFaPmZGA/s1600-h/2w9XXXqFFpsvkh8a1hQ4TXPKo1_400.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 242px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiVDCi23wAE6-bcw5jdePIbIvRjW3J5srkU6evSFKreWFRq453ThozZ303nzV-ii61Nqtqrgxnsgzrug9_1r9HAnxOq3rFW8TJzcPlEBmQTbjbTyuvYAbjSmdPI5mR6zTC1c3fFaPmZGA/s320/2w9XXXqFFpsvkh8a1hQ4TXPKo1_400.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5427327808083058514" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJGOO0cuxy9x9hdY_3sKX4WsqsIoU72OcFMUtW4cY8M7L-dmQNwXmlRw4fg1Y2qmBwPBucFcud2r7cRU3fn1k4isjbVdywwJ5_XRkuQD_7v0nmVKu4aMEF6wDNH9mTF_qMh39tczoSHQ/s1600-h/06_22158f1.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJGOO0cuxy9x9hdY_3sKX4WsqsIoU72OcFMUtW4cY8M7L-dmQNwXmlRw4fg1Y2qmBwPBucFcud2r7cRU3fn1k4isjbVdywwJ5_XRkuQD_7v0nmVKu4aMEF6wDNH9mTF_qMh39tczoSHQ/s320/06_22158f1.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5427327800181455666" /></a><br />Initially I had plans to go into town with a small group of friends, where we'd all probably go to lunch and spend the whole day slowly mopping around, laughing and not doing anything in particular at all. When I woke up early to take a cold shower, I thought to myself, what's the point? I can have a much more efficient day exercising and eating a maximum of 400 calories, so I choose Ana, it's the only way for me really. I know I need to make more of an effort with my friends, though if it jeopardises my relationship with Ana, I'd rather not. <br />I can fully express the way I feel on this blog, without having to worry about being caught out by something I say. The other day, a girl was walking past, and I just thought her normal however my friend was amazed at her thinness,, weird?? :L The support I get just gets me through, allows me to show a part of myself that no-one else gets to see. <br /><br />So far.<br />2 coffees<br />Small piece of bread, I'll work that off though. <br /><br />Stay strong xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-45716711908079224282010-01-13T05:23:00.001-08:002010-01-13T05:33:56.750-08:00Burning calorie options...So far so good, no calories yet. There is, however, a lot of snow. Which is both a good and bad thing, school was canceled and I missed my english class. I love english, secretly of course, all my friends hate it, but my teacher is amazing. <br />Ever thought how snow covers up all the crap on the ground and makes it beautiful? ... By the looks of it school will be closed tomorrow too! <br /><br />Planning an hour long walk later, through the snow, freezing though at least that burns even more calories. Maybe I'll take some pictures, in this fat ass body of mine. Slowly I'm working up the exercise I do, I'm not exactly what you would call a fan of it. ALthough I am looking for dance classes I can start, any suggestions? I used to do ballet though I'm not sure if I can start at my age...<br />I'll probably have to pay for it myself, and I still haven't had the chance to learn piano, such a lovely sound I'll never be able to make. But Ana's more important, and she needs me to burn calories. <br /><br />At the weekend I bought myself a thinspo notebook, empty for now, but I'll change that. <br /><br />Stay strong. xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-77349101453910055602010-01-12T09:47:00.001-08:002010-01-12T10:15:11.167-08:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgdT3zL1iqQv2XlrNEvg16mkP1dfwd3ZlVcmevjkmkcWbwRVBNlPPHm3VIf6K20ytw65D-riP_fbNO7N3EO1G2PqlustMj_iecEUsJYPZdRDg4azUq7s92EO4sRk9rIFS1aNftBDtm8Cg/s1600-h/girlookupatsky.png"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 209px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgdT3zL1iqQv2XlrNEvg16mkP1dfwd3ZlVcmevjkmkcWbwRVBNlPPHm3VIf6K20ytw65D-riP_fbNO7N3EO1G2PqlustMj_iecEUsJYPZdRDg4azUq7s92EO4sRk9rIFS1aNftBDtm8Cg/s320/girlookupatsky.png" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5425917754118695682" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKr9QxhB4t-pjcvQ9PMMp1L31L3HFJuvGfVKZq3qHZWpcFUZVjw-xdl1xHEkY4DEetEDtOFzoMM2an8d0zmXIQsJBWd2UOjFtTOwP8SwmeAvntkqcqYD1q2mVApIYXlDYY0UODBPWv4g/s1600-h/b205827375.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 319px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKr9QxhB4t-pjcvQ9PMMp1L31L3HFJuvGfVKZq3qHZWpcFUZVjw-xdl1xHEkY4DEetEDtOFzoMM2an8d0zmXIQsJBWd2UOjFtTOwP8SwmeAvntkqcqYD1q2mVApIYXlDYY0UODBPWv4g/s320/b205827375.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5425917750495408898" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0PuJeVaBesdGD5NWdPsWlw11dksyGKaIW6IP2pt5qopFI4oVTdgu3qqrrnlhJ8xvyCXmTw-xWH3NwkYq_nuj8kS5AHzMjxyX2Lr4gtDlg_nOjRj2PbR3QjEqC6Bhn5Ax_f0kcr30xgg/s1600-h/z201720289.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0PuJeVaBesdGD5NWdPsWlw11dksyGKaIW6IP2pt5qopFI4oVTdgu3qqrrnlhJ8xvyCXmTw-xWH3NwkYq_nuj8kS5AHzMjxyX2Lr4gtDlg_nOjRj2PbR3QjEqC6Bhn5Ax_f0kcr30xgg/s320/z201720289.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5425917743906957282" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhyAz2k1A_L3m3evuP786pKoqwJz5JYsxXrYiPU91UF_NN9Is0SPoQBlCi3hHAYJ-vnQuGRwoB4qHNhXXN9iw8tkfDaJ5mNR8-ZvJ9BdOCc3ex26l4Sbz7JOAjNx7jdMox62fUAraLtLQ/s1600-h/3834910653_e1294069d8_o.png"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 213px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhyAz2k1A_L3m3evuP786pKoqwJz5JYsxXrYiPU91UF_NN9Is0SPoQBlCi3hHAYJ-vnQuGRwoB4qHNhXXN9iw8tkfDaJ5mNR8-ZvJ9BdOCc3ex26l4Sbz7JOAjNx7jdMox62fUAraLtLQ/s320/3834910653_e1294069d8_o.png" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5425917737559029986" /></a><br />The 2468 diet is going well, <br /><br />Gabie suggested I try doing 1234, don't think I'm quite there yet though I could work towards it. <br />I'll definitely keep you posted Jessica :)<br /><br />I managed to save most of my calories for dinner:<br /><br />100-chunky vegetable soup<br />110-wholemeal bread roll<br /><br />Which means another 190 calories for the evening, hmmm... <br /><br />Exercise for an hour before grabbing a cold shower and looking for thinspo, how boring do I sound today?! Oh well, I don't care, it's the little things that keep us content through the day. <br /><br />Think thin, hope everyone is doing good too :) xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-37526866833597453052010-01-11T02:38:00.000-08:002010-01-11T02:56:26.780-08:002468...lets go!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgkKC967DMMhsTYF-PSbNkoZSOFDQRum7RA4VASzP8jBQKuSKhTTmHzPrwHNjgmvVofI7B5EKmeYHFit8CAn6-C__Hko-HPRa1nWb4tGmzuSbDzP8KnOChP13WJw-RJRQdm_pamDyV2gg/s1600-h/20080910083212.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 195px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgkKC967DMMhsTYF-PSbNkoZSOFDQRum7RA4VASzP8jBQKuSKhTTmHzPrwHNjgmvVofI7B5EKmeYHFit8CAn6-C__Hko-HPRa1nWb4tGmzuSbDzP8KnOChP13WJw-RJRQdm_pamDyV2gg/s320/20080910083212.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5425432976123181090" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1eTjallTqJeAcOEnKp8BCoU1lJmDMBZQusJPQibJPQMNmPWhBTSU9tQWhGp_qKB1cRVRIduSebW63jGUeL0VhhZAmkjN8YcltLcQjPqsTyu6ZtxsUOlSIk8hRcbKNbxCm49IqcwMecg/s1600-h/2880eo.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1eTjallTqJeAcOEnKp8BCoU1lJmDMBZQusJPQibJPQMNmPWhBTSU9tQWhGp_qKB1cRVRIduSebW63jGUeL0VhhZAmkjN8YcltLcQjPqsTyu6ZtxsUOlSIk8hRcbKNbxCm49IqcwMecg/s320/2880eo.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5425432969261444018" /></a><br />Yet another day off school, this is now a whole week off school as well as the holidays. Can't I have a social life? Can't I get away from all this food?! All the food tormenting me, beconing me with its finger. <br />Moving on to better topics...<br />I've decided to just go for the 2468 diet, for two weeks. I'll also come up with a workout routine and stop being such a lazy ass. So what if its cold, I can deal. Stay tuned...<br />The most visable bones I have are probably my colarbones or hips, I love it! Bones are just so beautiful, I can't imagion something thats worth fighting harder for. Beautiful. They don't cling to your body the way fat does, bones shape you. <br /><br />Stay strong. <br />xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-75313796989214667122010-01-08T05:45:00.000-08:002010-01-08T05:59:08.734-08:00Getting somewhere at leastLife. It is what we make it right? I've made a mess of mine and it needs sorting through, most of it at least. <br />As long as I have a decided limit of calories to stick to, I'm usually quite successful, because of this, yesterday went much better then expected, around 400 calories. Which means, from now on I'm only going to allow myself a certain amount of calories, the less I eat the less I need to work off. <br />Okay, don't hate me for saying this. There's this guy, and I think I'm into him. It's just... Well I'm going to see how things go, promise to keep you posted. I just wanted to mention it for some reason. <br />To occupy myself, I've decided to paint my nails, distract me from food etc. Planning to get my hair cut, it's beginning to get super long. Usually I have this idealistic view in winter to keep it long, no more my friends, it's getting short. Not short short, but short. <br />Has anyone ever tried the 2468 diet, apparently it's really effective and maybe it will help me to stick to my limits. I was thinking of doing it for about 2 weeks, what are your thoughts? <br /><br />Think thin skinny minnie's, xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-63442492783930648092010-01-06T08:32:00.000-08:002010-01-07T06:48:43.365-08:00Snow Day....Hooray!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJJeHD2bfRI97Sfovq2Gndp5Qs8N5FBTwtLsanCfkbVvS7Kan2cnHxe91nVWg00nFLa9MSYQcTNQ_73HnJSYYHnDjru5qn__Qnfl9vRluGz0NDyjnhb4dwNyIBNRsfDxb0AeTHBDTPDw/s1600-h/Jessica-Stroup-jessica-stroup-2260018-1333-2000.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 213px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJJeHD2bfRI97Sfovq2Gndp5Qs8N5FBTwtLsanCfkbVvS7Kan2cnHxe91nVWg00nFLa9MSYQcTNQ_73HnJSYYHnDjru5qn__Qnfl9vRluGz0NDyjnhb4dwNyIBNRsfDxb0AeTHBDTPDw/s320/Jessica-Stroup-jessica-stroup-2260018-1333-2000.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5424009004042077474" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5Sbwft2OgC_aOAhPHSN_wzLFNq73PSkbBoA735qgC1bV7nlksox8f4foJ5cLLDLjW7GMxHqBb6awSGhB6acCnITCeAEiMT-wkCTHe4-MMe8RzDnxndJ9GDU9GO-S9D3liD1OYKp2s8A/s1600-h/PaleyFest09-jessica-stroup-5539597-500-770.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 208px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5Sbwft2OgC_aOAhPHSN_wzLFNq73PSkbBoA735qgC1bV7nlksox8f4foJ5cLLDLjW7GMxHqBb6awSGhB6acCnITCeAEiMT-wkCTHe4-MMe8RzDnxndJ9GDU9GO-S9D3liD1OYKp2s8A/s320/PaleyFest09-jessica-stroup-5539597-500-770.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5424008625988528082" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgEPmH3c-5w-AGt4eHS0xHS1p7firxy_Zg8O3ZpTnoJ1zDPke1XG3gdaN1Zb_3uV431o2GCE0oEoZNnr7Xttb56SpgeD7eBo4IwBLGX3-sOy9b2JsrwsLsXfSE_iWM38DqJgnNVMOQy6A/s1600-h/return_to_origins_04_wenn2357340.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 150px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgEPmH3c-5w-AGt4eHS0xHS1p7firxy_Zg8O3ZpTnoJ1zDPke1XG3gdaN1Zb_3uV431o2GCE0oEoZNnr7Xttb56SpgeD7eBo4IwBLGX3-sOy9b2JsrwsLsXfSE_iWM38DqJgnNVMOQy6A/s320/return_to_origins_04_wenn2357340.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5424008621932412530" /></a><br /><br /><br />Today is a new day. Woke up and stared out of my window, all I could see was white, so beautiful. Because of all the snow school was canceled and again tomorrow, which at the beggining I loved though now I'm bored, possibly a great time to excercise, maybe I'll take a walk in the snow...<br />Yesturday I did eat my dinner, I've got to be honest, I wasn't forced, I could have easily thrown it in the trash. By trying to avoid suspicion from my mum, I'm allowing myself to eat, saying to myself "She might notice if I don't eat it, I may as well eat it, why not?" Which is total bull because she probably wouldn't notice anyway. <br />Trying to find some amazing thinspo music, any suggestions? I really want some music I can blast at full volume on my iPod while ignoring everything that is, including my hunger. <br /><br />Gabbie. Thanks for the advice, I must admit that's a great idea. I'm aiming towards size 8 which would be US size 4, that would be wonderful. <br /><br />Oh, I found some crackers which are only 15 calories each, how great is that? Today's total so far is a cup of grapes, so yummy, probably a few crackers within an hour or so. <br /><br />Some of you may noticed, I've created an email addy, so feel free to add me, I'd love some ana buddies to chat to. On there I can give you my mob number as well if you like. <br /><br />Jessica Stroup is fabulously thin don't you think? Amazing thinspiration to me, even thinner then she was before, even though she did used to be a bit big before that. <br /><br />Stay strong x <br />hugs.Aimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-81017038880587529842010-01-03T08:38:00.000-08:002010-01-03T10:30:40.375-08:00Re-fresh yourself<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMSuJIupYZx6Bi7Q9YOit1gP-x1jitag6QisRGwcqelmSQnRwMJjdlQrC8ouonMWi4cOqVUQ4KvVWGFzv_CY7fHg5SAf_Qk1bCDGpQr5vnnx_YRZPRDkqjIlzS6_i9kcF_p3cBaJ-l_w/s1600-h/2773345395_aa2817b07c.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 218px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMSuJIupYZx6Bi7Q9YOit1gP-x1jitag6QisRGwcqelmSQnRwMJjdlQrC8ouonMWi4cOqVUQ4KvVWGFzv_CY7fHg5SAf_Qk1bCDGpQr5vnnx_YRZPRDkqjIlzS6_i9kcF_p3cBaJ-l_w/s320/2773345395_aa2817b07c.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5422582039960085890" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMULnVuITpkjmB7W0no0a9EvSPmUwy2HFsACjP2tGly1p7PT6gGpN4zYFuqVynoyNdE-nwYyXBsauH1rnansxh1TiYLjyNnHjrt6PxtADjq9u2wgvGqL8Xul-sNIGpfnt-xeg5LcOsAw/s1600-h/z183464608.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 227px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMULnVuITpkjmB7W0no0a9EvSPmUwy2HFsACjP2tGly1p7PT6gGpN4zYFuqVynoyNdE-nwYyXBsauH1rnansxh1TiYLjyNnHjrt6PxtADjq9u2wgvGqL8Xul-sNIGpfnt-xeg5LcOsAw/s320/z183464608.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5422582034786282994" /></a><br />Okay. Time to sort through some things. <br /><br />First of all I'm sorry I've been away for a few weeks, went to my relatives for the holidays and Internet connections were impossible. <br /><br />Speaking of the holidays, how did things go for everyone?<br /><br />For me? Not so good, for some pathetic reason I allowed myself to eat whatever I wanted. However that's over now, and I'm beginning to regain control, school is starting tomorrow, not looking forward to it at all, though I am excited to be able not to eat throughout the day. While visiting my relatives there was no-where to hide, absolutely nowhere, except the bathroom of course but with so many people in the house there's a time limit in there. Anyway, I couldn't stand it there, it was great seeing everyone, all together for Christmas and everything however there is too many eyes watching you, trying to stuff your face with food and noticing whenever you don't eat. I went out of my mind with all their comments, you could be a model, you're so skinny have another biscuit. <br /><br />Having a fast today to re freshen myself, doing well so far, hoping I'll be able to bin my dinner. Fingers crossed. <br /><br />After Christmas, I went shopping, bought loads of new cloths, including a new pair of jeans. I highlight this item of clothing because these were size 10 jeans. How can someone have a size 6 top with 32A boobs and then have size 10 jeans? Personally I'd prefer size 8 throughout. So that's what I'm aiming towards, size 8 jeans. My new years resolution if you like. <br /><br />New years resolutions:<br /><br />1)Fit into size 8 jeans. <br />2)Loose half a stone, if I'm not happy with that, a stone. <br />3)Successfully become a vegetarian<br /><br />The last one may be difficult, I'm trying to be a vegetarian without actually telling anyone so I'll let you know how it goes. I usually hate new years, it brings a lot of painful thoughts and memories, not to mention the calorie amount in booze, although this year I'm taking advantage, using my resolutions to better myself, even though I didn't exactly start my plans until now and not straight after new years. <br /><br />As long as I stay in the right mind frame and keep a positive attitude, I really believe thinness is possible. <br /><br />Stay strong<br />Hugs xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-33496557826026381242009-12-19T08:27:00.000-08:002009-12-19T08:38:37.245-08:00I don't want the world to see me...<br />because I don't think that they'd understand. <br /><br />Some lyrics from a favourite song of mine, it seemed fitting. At the minute I feel like a complete mess, not only am I eating, I'm eating things that aren't even healthy. There's a difference between before this started though, when I eat now, I feel repulsed with myself. <br />My mind has a gross way of thinking, as soon as I eat something my mind takes over and allows me to eat anything else I want to. I think I've already ruined things so I might as well carry on. Which is stupid, the more calories I consume, the fatter I get. God, I'm on the verge of crying here. <br /><br />Calorie intake (please don't be mad at me):<br />Soup= 60<br />bread roll= 175?<br />chocolates= 300?<br />Biscuits= 250<br />tea. <br />Total= 785. <br />And who knows what else I'll have later. <br /><br />I'm sorry. XAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-68487814532913888832009-12-11T11:00:00.000-08:002009-12-16T09:59:32.983-08:00New path<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyW83JwYW8ziab6xnS3R8gkPfTREYLfiJ8RUpM8iSruTER72YDgKDXChMQXPDjN-Yw7_gVjn6b1yBeyUp2CIE89v2_0FmgnVLQKQF3mjo2eHPcMJn8tdoOoa93TMEu89xSxvbhQxBAVw/s1600-h/z96647951.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 276px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyW83JwYW8ziab6xnS3R8gkPfTREYLfiJ8RUpM8iSruTER72YDgKDXChMQXPDjN-Yw7_gVjn6b1yBeyUp2CIE89v2_0FmgnVLQKQF3mjo2eHPcMJn8tdoOoa93TMEu89xSxvbhQxBAVw/s320/z96647951.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5415894520012852514" /></a><br />Okay, I'm sorry I haven't been posting in a little while, I've been trying to sort through some of my thoughts. First, it's official, I've failed ABC. Its ended. I'm sorry, the truth is I should have been stricter with myself. <br />For the rest of the year I'm going to restrict, though not to an extreme level. <br /><br />Hoping to start a new diet plan with a friend. I know she'll be able to help me through it this time. Slowly I'll be able to find my path again. Hopefully we'll work things out in time for my next post. <br /><br />For some reason, I can't follow the people who follow me :/ Does anyone know how I can? This may seem stupid, but I really don't know.<br /><br />E. A huge thanks to E for her amazing comment in my last post, it made me feel a lot better. <br /><br />Hazel, I'll definitely get some vitamins, thanks love. :) <br /><br />Stay strong ladies, together we can do this. <br />Let me know how you're all doing xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-69924761209506468792009-12-07T10:46:00.000-08:002009-12-08T11:23:17.746-08:00Failure.2 warm mini rolls=250 calories<br />strawberry's=50? I only had two small ones. <br /><br />Omg! I'm in stress overload. I mis-calculated the calorie amount I was aloud today, I thought it was something like 400. It's 150. I. WANT. TO. DIE. Why do these things always happen to me!? The feeling of food in my stomach isn't a good one, weighing me down and filling me out. Already I've had like, 300! That's double! Double?! That's it, tomorrow is a fast. No exceptions. I'm such a fat failure. Yesterdays fast went quite well, I did have something like 60 calories but no doubt I burnt them off. <br /><br />Later I'm treating myself to a coffee, gum and water, nothing else. Can't wait. <br />There's a aerobics class starting soon, which I'm signing up for no doubt. Apparently its one that releases stress, anger and reduces calories. I'm there! <br /><br />Christmas is counting down quickly and I've decided as soon as its over, I'm becoming a vegetarian, no matter what. As if its not going to be stressful enough without the rest of the food around the table :( Planning will begin straight away. <br /><br />Sorry I've been such a clueless failure. Now I'm so disappointed in myself. I apologise to all of you, when I fail myself it feels as if I'm failing all of you guys too. :( <br /><br />Wish me luck, no food for the next 36 hours at least. xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-49004319074817003912009-12-04T09:24:00.001-08:002009-12-04T10:35:26.278-08:00They come and go...ana will always be there for you<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjA2zTD33u4x8PL0aDflLTlwuduDvYchP_ET494qHaOU3oYhEDtDxRWQyYHBePFHot6Re6RXY_MXYziJSmrXpmSl_0DFVzoMnjuwvy7nYlVju3u4tODVFSyBl3_iDT8zee5M8xe2J0vaA/s1600-h/19.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 166px; height: 226px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjA2zTD33u4x8PL0aDflLTlwuduDvYchP_ET494qHaOU3oYhEDtDxRWQyYHBePFHot6Re6RXY_MXYziJSmrXpmSl_0DFVzoMnjuwvy7nYlVju3u4tODVFSyBl3_iDT8zee5M8xe2J0vaA/s320/19.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5411451105893768530" /></a><br />Last year I did experiment with ana, not officially so I didn't loose much weight. Then I began to eat...A LOT, literally every meal, every snack, anything that was handed my way. I gained so much weight, became so unhappy. This was when I realised I love ana. ANA. I strive to reach it, my biggest fear is for it to slip away. Which is why I don't care about anything else anymore. I made a mistake, ana wasn't my biggest priority, so I'm sorry for that...I guess as long as I'm working towards ana, everything else will fall behind, hopefully not too far though. Friends, family, school work, successes, all mean so much to me(don't get me wrong), I just need to be thin. <br /><br />ABC was been working, I swear it has. When I put my legs together there are gaps between my thighs. I now have a slimming to my waist, which I love. These past few days I haven't been doing well though, which ruins so much, my bf and I broke up, causing me to eat my weight in food. It's not that I don't agree with the break up, I just feel lost. As if I can't remember how I felt about anything, I must have been so absorbed in myself. <br /><br />Eating wise today:<br /><br />Ham salad sandwich (wtf?!)=200<br />Crisps (I could cry)=100<br />Extra nibbles=100 <br />400. Not as bad as I feared, I just can't go over that. Today I was only suppose to have 300 calories but I won't restart the diet. These tough few days are excuse enough, I should think. <br /><br />12 Followers. Finally I have people to share this with, people who will comment and people I can share a whole part of my identity with, that no-one else knows about. <br /><br />Stay strong darlings, let me know how you're doing. xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-65571685758292617152009-11-29T09:00:00.000-08:002009-12-01T10:48:29.831-08:00ABC...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaXETrcpYY1xyNzwdgS1NS4ohKHBs_wCrsjQplbVTUX__COvC8-h99nNlQ1kgDJi8mMYylUZN9jOzheHSwMhazAKlP6LBc2d3Mf0ZoqQF_jAvS_H1Wh65yJL_TRqOwzkxV-C11X7JfyQ/s1600/mary-kate_olsen.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaXETrcpYY1xyNzwdgS1NS4ohKHBs_wCrsjQplbVTUX__COvC8-h99nNlQ1kgDJi8mMYylUZN9jOzheHSwMhazAKlP6LBc2d3Mf0ZoqQF_jAvS_H1Wh65yJL_TRqOwzkxV-C11X7JfyQ/s320/mary-kate_olsen.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5409978662607688226" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5zRmgIHQUfOwjY37sI48qAz6WMhuxyGoPTdJw7OLsLWmVq1fZREEA3YhCAzyTqX64lnhlX3PdAkOaGIrZdqTBKar4v_PvKJEMnvZwR33kRZDX7f49Sgh8ctzaQQabi_G_IVLfzBnhSg/s1600/z169658396.png"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5zRmgIHQUfOwjY37sI48qAz6WMhuxyGoPTdJw7OLsLWmVq1fZREEA3YhCAzyTqX64lnhlX3PdAkOaGIrZdqTBKar4v_PvKJEMnvZwR33kRZDX7f49Sgh8ctzaQQabi_G_IVLfzBnhSg/s320/z169658396.png" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5409978660786711378" /></a><br /><br />Started the ABC diet on Friday! Decided to in quite a hast actually, just made it, and now I'm on a 50 day diet. Which sounds really difficult although I know with the support of everyone else doing it, I'll hopefully be able to pull through :) <br /><br /><em>*updated*</em><br />day1: 500 calories - did about right <br />day2: 500 calories - horrible. disgusting day...<br />3:300 calories - fingers crossed<br />4:400 calories-I thought that was a 300 day, so I'm ok<br />5: 100 calories<br />6: 200 calories<br />7: 300 calories<br />8: 400 calories<br />9: 500 calories<br />10: fast<br />11: 150 calories<br />12: 200 calories<br />13: 400 calories<br />14: 350 calories<br />15: 250 calories<br />16: 200 calories<br />17: fast<br />18: 200 calories<br />19: 100 calories<br />20: fast<br />21: 300 calories<br />22: 250 calories<br />23: 200 calories<br />24: 150 calories<br />25: 100 calories<br />26: 50 calories<br />27: 100 calories<br />28: 200 calories<br />29: 200 calories<br />30: 300 calories<br />31: 800<br />32: fast <br />33: 250 calories<br />34: 350 calories<br />35: 450 calories<br />36: fast<br />37: 500 calories<br />38: 450 calories<br />39: 400 calories<br />40: 350 calories<br />41: 300 calories<br />42: 250 calories<br />43: 200 calories<br />44: 200 calories<br />45: 250 calories<br />46: 200 calories<br />47: 300 calories<br />48: 200 calories<br />49: 150 calories<br />50: fast<br /><br /><br />Leftover spag bol= 250 ish. I only had a cup full. <br /><br />Later I plan to have a coffee. That's it. I'm serious. <br />250 is under the diet day 3 allowance, so I'm glad :) <br /><br />These days I'm seriously considering becoming a vegetarian, I think it will help with my eating habits a lot. Also it will be another excuse not to eat.<br /><br />Ordered my dress for the Christmas party today, I'll show a picture of it in my next post. There's no way I'll be able to hide any of me in this, which means I'll just have to work twice as hard. I've been dancing for a while in my kitchen, haha, you should all be thankful you didn't see it. <br /><br />Stay strong my lovely ladies. We can do this xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525446955048937890.post-77399954474249467332009-11-25T09:32:00.000-08:002009-11-25T10:23:43.150-08:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLAKStU-P_CWckYZNkp7AndDMOohTCoWbCRzs60JDN6UxrFa2zaI0yyJMRP816AZqdTm3-vf7VM7v0aFEHKbS71u7bhy5d6QOod0U6auf9JyBOpmCJZrhkh2HicMTuamiXqgKNUQml5w/s1600/taylor_momsen.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 238px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLAKStU-P_CWckYZNkp7AndDMOohTCoWbCRzs60JDN6UxrFa2zaI0yyJMRP816AZqdTm3-vf7VM7v0aFEHKbS71u7bhy5d6QOod0U6auf9JyBOpmCJZrhkh2HicMTuamiXqgKNUQml5w/s320/taylor_momsen.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5408108602395522642" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_48rpYP0DcEOe8xbJ489DkAHqdFC-B8uVA3jIL0oyYXpIWlLw8OG5TJyZbYHrAiuQB589YCFBBtl3aNstks2gZO2lbuY0BB6pIF3cnYJYAd3rz4zMnPHEbuPFG-3d0AUGiqCalBu-oQ/s1600/slim1.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 170px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_48rpYP0DcEOe8xbJ489DkAHqdFC-B8uVA3jIL0oyYXpIWlLw8OG5TJyZbYHrAiuQB589YCFBBtl3aNstks2gZO2lbuY0BB6pIF3cnYJYAd3rz4zMnPHEbuPFG-3d0AUGiqCalBu-oQ/s320/slim1.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5408108595584154338" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTh7GlNmbkgNyy9WBU680FLUNcWFX-iYmLd4o3H4xwhXC6L3UTvNZo2ukhtK69909Qk9DWZ4DOMkcmRkZ04jYM6eYlktYBUR6PieQdBTTCmmMXCYNCKLn0N6BU4UmZEg9qihBvXOO90w/s1600/pcruz1.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 218px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTh7GlNmbkgNyy9WBU680FLUNcWFX-iYmLd4o3H4xwhXC6L3UTvNZo2ukhtK69909Qk9DWZ4DOMkcmRkZ04jYM6eYlktYBUR6PieQdBTTCmmMXCYNCKLn0N6BU4UmZEg9qihBvXOO90w/s320/pcruz1.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5408108586178291890" /></a><br />FOLLOWERS ARE WELCOME :)<br />Sorry I simply had to clarify, there's no need to be worried, I may come off a little strangly though I'm really not that bad of a person. Just a girl trying to better herself. <br /><br />Nibbles, 60 calories.<br />Cup of pasta, 150 calories. <br />Coffee<br /><br />That cup of pasta doesn't please me:( How am I going to stop eating dinner!? Though I thought if I ate it, I'd be less likely to binge later. Hopefully...<br /><br />Also I'll have 60 nibble calories later as well as a coffee to avoid suspicion from my mum, things would be so much easier without her. 270 calories all in all. No time for exercise tonight, I'll wake up early tomorrow so I can fit in time. That's the plan at least :) <br /><br />Stay strong darlings. xAimeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15599123274514068491noreply@blogger.com1