Failure.

2 warm mini rolls=250 calories
strawberry's=50? I only had two small ones.

Omg! I'm in stress overload. I mis-calculated the calorie amount I was aloud today, I thought it was something like 400. It's 150. I. WANT. TO. DIE. Why do these things always happen to me!? The feeling of food in my stomach isn't a good one, weighing me down and filling me out. Already I've had like, 300! That's double! Double?! That's it, tomorrow is a fast. No exceptions. I'm such a fat failure. Yesterdays fast went quite well, I did have something like 60 calories but no doubt I burnt them off.

Later I'm treating myself to a coffee, gum and water, nothing else. Can't wait.
There's a aerobics class starting soon, which I'm signing up for no doubt. Apparently its one that releases stress, anger and reduces calories. I'm there!

Christmas is counting down quickly and I've decided as soon as its over, I'm becoming a vegetarian, no matter what. As if its not going to be stressful enough without the rest of the food around the table :( Planning will begin straight away.

Sorry I've been such a clueless failure. Now I'm so disappointed in myself. I apologise to all of you, when I fail myself it feels as if I'm failing all of you guys too. :(

Wish me luck, no food for the next 36 hours at least. x