Sunday, 3 January 2010
Okay. Time to sort through some things.
First of all I'm sorry I've been away for a few weeks, went to my relatives for the holidays and Internet connections were impossible.
Speaking of the holidays, how did things go for everyone?
For me? Not so good, for some pathetic reason I allowed myself to eat whatever I wanted. However that's over now, and I'm beginning to regain control, school is starting tomorrow, not looking forward to it at all, though I am excited to be able not to eat throughout the day. While visiting my relatives there was no-where to hide, absolutely nowhere, except the bathroom of course but with so many people in the house there's a time limit in there. Anyway, I couldn't stand it there, it was great seeing everyone, all together for Christmas and everything however there is too many eyes watching you, trying to stuff your face with food and noticing whenever you don't eat. I went out of my mind with all their comments, you could be a model, you're so skinny have another biscuit.
Having a fast today to re freshen myself, doing well so far, hoping I'll be able to bin my dinner. Fingers crossed.
After Christmas, I went shopping, bought loads of new cloths, including a new pair of jeans. I highlight this item of clothing because these were size 10 jeans. How can someone have a size 6 top with 32A boobs and then have size 10 jeans? Personally I'd prefer size 8 throughout. So that's what I'm aiming towards, size 8 jeans. My new years resolution if you like.
New years resolutions:
1)Fit into size 8 jeans.
2)Loose half a stone, if I'm not happy with that, a stone.
3)Successfully become a vegetarian
The last one may be difficult, I'm trying to be a vegetarian without actually telling anyone so I'll let you know how it goes. I usually hate new years, it brings a lot of painful thoughts and memories, not to mention the calorie amount in booze, although this year I'm taking advantage, using my resolutions to better myself, even though I didn't exactly start my plans until now and not straight after new years.
As long as I stay in the right mind frame and keep a positive attitude, I really believe thinness is possible.